It's Hard to Say Goodbye....

My Grandma passed away last night. It is SUCH a blessing, as she was suffering much more than she should ever had (she had pneumonia), but it is still such a loss for all of us. It's been a hard year, as I lost my other Grandma in July. It's interesting how you kind of become child-like in your thinking, I came home crying (I was actually doing a home visit with a mom who was having a hard time breastfeeding) and told Brad that I don't want to get any older, I don't want life to change. I have been blessed to have 3 out of 4 Grandparents for all my 34 years. I have learned so much from each of them, much more than I think they will ever know. I have so many wonderful memories growing up, and I'm so thankful that my girls were able to know them too.

It's just hard knowing that I can't call them up to say that I'm coming down for a visit:) I will miss making cookies with my Grandma "Omi", looking at how everything in her house coordinated (literally, she would put color coordinated ribbons on everything, lol), and watching her busy herself in the kitchen. I will miss the many fishing trips with her and Grandpa and laughing at her cap she would always wear. I will miss Grandma Trellis' little smirk when would say something (she wasn't afraid of being honest:), picking strawberries from her garden, knowing that she always had Twizzlers and Little Debbie snack cakes above the washing machine, tea parties and watching her cook.

I had to chuckle because I was sooooo lucky to go down and see Grandma Trellis a couple weeks ago when she was doing good, and she asked if I was still cooking al ot, to which I replied "yes". She informed me that she hated cooking! WHAT??!!! She always made the most wonderful food, how could she not like it??!!

I will always cherish those special moments that I with both my Grandmas before they passed, what an incredible that was.